MAMA awards in Nairobi Kenya
At the 2009 MTV Africa Music Award held in Nairobi Kenya. Ofcoarse WAHU killed it on stage with the oh so beautiful song sweet love which i believe was for her daugter, and AY who i could not make out the words he was saying for shit, or mayb im just slow. Anywho and my fave *drum roll please* the oh so gorgeous AMANI totally got my attention with tonight or maybe it was the outfit. IDK let me kno what you think. I loved the performance overall
There she was
There she was
The girl I wanted to wake up next to
My first and was supposed to be my last
My long lost love
Sitting in the passenger seat
See this was familiar
Me in the driver seat
Her in the passenger seat
Talking, laughing, joking, dreaming, kissing
In those very same positions also
Crying, contemplating, arguing, loving, hurting
And I realize its over
Its been over
We both just haven't accepted it yet
And I look at her talking
Her lips moving
Wanting to kiss her
And take away the glistening in her eye
Which I knew was a tear
Fighting to roll down her cheek
But I'm held back
The heartache, sorrow, pain, and broken dreams
Crawl back to my reality
And I hug her
Closely
And remind her
She was my first
Something
No one
Not even I
Can ever take away
Scared to..
Scared to love
Scared to trust
Scared to let myself be vulnerable
Why you may ask its only human
Kind of rational
Once one sees your weakness
They know exactly how to hurt u
So y let people know
Exactly how to hurt you
Then u risk
Living with a broken heart
Broken dreams
Dreadful realities and
Another disappointment
Yet you wake up
And grab this love
By the horns
And take it for a ride
Why I ask
I mean,
is this love any different
Is she going to hurt you
If u let her in….?
U risking losing everything
Everything you have build up
Since the last lost love
This road with no clear path
Well except the 2 uncertain
Destinations
And when all voices, memories and hurt are gone
Its u and the path ahead
And that feeling comes again
And you are
Scared to love
Scared to trust
Scared to let yourself be vulnerable
And you realize its
what's
Been
holding
you
……….down.
wonderful surprises
wonderful surprises
its really amazing what you can find, whether its someone new, a new interest or something new about yourself. But everyone needs to realize life is a battle you win some you lose some. learn from the ones you lost. Embrace and be proud of the ones you won. Go and live life coz its too damn short to be worryin about what people think, do or say (ok well to some extent keep an open mind about things).
Otherwise you just might miss out on life's little surprises. N i mean if someone aint treating you right get the fuck outta there, im preety sure there is someone out there that will and appriciate you too. But i guess with the mentality that whenever u put urself out there you risk getting hurt again might hold you back just have a lil faith n take the risk because again ull never kno wat ur missing out on............take
just a glimpse
just a glimpse
was it the hazy view from her tear filled eyes or was the starry night sky in front of her that was both bright and dark at the same time....lit by te glimpse of hope that remains in her heart and darkend by a reminder of how the scatter of stars resembled the pieces of her broken dreams, hopes n love but most hurtful of them all her heart..
unwritten or undefined
unwritten or undefined
i just realised today that i have a ton of respect for those who are strong, confident and empowerd to actually defy any labels or definitions that society wants us to conform to. If you think about it its our difference that makes us all unique and special too. So wat if society thinks that all the colors of the rainbow should all be red then we wouldnt have that diversity in colors which make the rainbow as beautiful as it is........wat do you think? is what society labels you as, as important as you being urself and being able to fall into the category of the undefined that way u get to decide what people see you as n not what society wants to see you as?
moving on....n letting go
moving on....n letting go
K, so things have been over between us for a while but i couldnt help but hope that things would somehow sove themselves n we would go back to the way things were before. But everytime i try to let you know how you feel u repeated ly remind me of the reason why i left in the first place, u dont really need me in ur life n personally i think until u figure out what exactly you want besides someone u can court, until then i dont think things will ever work. So finnaly i have accepted the fact that its over n theres no hope for that love. Like justin timberlake said its dead n gone, even though its clear to my mind its hard to convince my heart. so ill just take the opportunity i have to start over in a new place n hopefully this transition is not gonna take long. I guess the only way to shelter myself from feelin that hurt of letting something gois cutting u off till i can figure out a way to deal with it...........idk if this makes me the bad guy or not because if i dont make this move i wount be able to move on n i need to if i plan to be happy again
~~~Cutting all contact will do you good no longer will you allow them to play with your heart, take the time to heal & get back to enjoying the single life...ya ex is juz that for many reasonzzz so let them play their role which will allow you to grow above the hurt & pain so in time you'll love again...this time make sure its someone worthy of you before giving your love to em
~~~good for u for leavin shit why wait on some1 who clearly aint ready n dont want wat u have to give! fuckem n move on
sad truth
sad truth
Sometimes i wake up hoping that wat i did to u never happend, that my feelings for u never changed or ever put my guard. I really miss u, i kno that i see u n talk to u but its like when i told u how i felt, a part of u n i died n now everythin is just plain, no expectations no plans for anythin past today which scares me until i realize that im responsible for all this n i pull my self together n ignore the emptyness left inside.
Im scared of lookin away because if i do ill turn around n see u with someone else. N i would be heartbroken that it wouldnt be me......anyways its life i guess
~~~t is life....and its unfortunate but you have to take care of you first
~~~WOW THAT'S HEART FELT BABE I HOPE YOU WILL BE OKAY.....
wat do you consider cheating??
wat do you consider cheating??
ive asked countless people what they consider cheating and ive heard everything from having thoughts of actually doin something else with someone whose not ur girlfriend, wify, boyfriend watever the status is. The other one was actually having sex with someone else. So really before it actually gets to the sex part wat would really be considered as cheating......
I had asked this question on dl and these were some of the responses I got.
~~~to me its any thought that you know damn well aint right you have about some1 you have clear access to...or can get access to if you really wanted to.... so when chics got "friends" or exes and they try to convince their new partner its nothing....to me tha convincing is a form of cheatin bc you know damn well if youre able to just tell a chic...hey listen wats good wit u and she gonna drop her shit then yea its cheatin.....so simple things like "oh me and my ex still sleep together every night" or "oh yea she still live wit me" or "well i need some1 to hold me and shes tha only one around" but u steady trynna get wit tha next chic! like come tha hell on who would really be comfortable wit knowin they chic is basically taken care of by someone else other than them?! its crazy! but then again im real particular about things....and true to my sign im loyal but soon as you cross me or i think you gonna cross me bc of your random behaviors yea its a wrap....so i just tell ppl "look imma keep it 100 wit u so do tha same wit me" and if a chic cant do that then its a wrap....i honestly feel that distance tests relationships and if you cant trustem afar then you damn sure cant trustem near! tha reality of life is that ppl often times live apart or have to go places for business or trips and why should they have to babysit their companion?! no1 is always together.....shit i work too much to b up under some1!.....feel me?
~~~SLEEPING WITH SOMEONE ELSE IS CHEATING, THINGS LIKE HUGGING IS NOT CHEATIG TO ME.BUT KISSING, SEX, ANY ORAL SEX, TOUCHING BODY PARTS ACTUALLY LEAD TO SEX SO I WOULD SAY BASICALLY SEX, ANYTHING YOU CANT DO IN FRONT OF UR WOMAN TO ME IS CHEATING...YEAH BUT U RIGHT ALSO
~~~personally i think its anything you do with someone other than ur significant other that really makes you think like damn i wonder what he/she would do if she ever found out.....preety much anything you would have to second guess or question
~~~~~so wat do you donsider cheating whether its in a heterosexual relationship, homosexual or whatever you want to call it, in ur world wat exactly is cheating?????~~~~~
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